It never ends…

For those of you that know us personally you know that the past year and a half really has been very difficult for us.  A year and a half ago my husband began applying to law schools because he was unsatisfied with his job and had always wanted to be involved in law and politics.  I encouraged him to apply to law school in order to see that dream fulfilled.  Later as he applied we found out that his scores weren’t high enough to get him in.  My husband has also been diagnosed with hypothyroidism.  It is a condition that can slow your whole body down if you are not on a medication or have it under wraps.  Unfortunately because of a series of past events he hadn’t been on his medication the whole three years that we had been married at that time and didn’t do as well as he could have on that test because of his sickness.  He did exceptional for the condition that he was in.  I am so proud that his score was average for being so sick and unable to think clearly.  When we got him tested right after our son was born his TSH levels that are supposed to be low like between .5 and 5 were very high 210!  We are thankful that he is still here with us and didn’t slip into a coma.  He is a very strong man!

Things didn’t work out the way we had planned a little scared but trusting God we left staff June 1, 2008.  We had previously been with a Christian ministry for several years.  As we left staff Jonathan worked a series of temp jobs in order to supplement our income.  I worked a little bit as a Nanny but was pregnant with our child who was to be born in September.  During the end of January of this year Jonathan landed a job in Financial Services.  He has been working very very hard at his new job.  However, it does take a bit to get going because of the nature of the job we have been waiting for it to get going.  He is doing well at it and I have very proud to be his wife.  Unfortunately because of debt we have incurred as far as our health insurance goes we are in a very tight spot.  So tight that we may be in a situation where we never would have hoped for these next couple of months.  As you might understand this leaves us nervous and restless.  We are trying out best to trust the Lord but we feel beat up and kicked in the face from life.  We want a break and some peace. We desperately need a vacation but aren’t able to take one.  I want so badly for my husband to be doing something that he loves. And he does loves this job but he also wants to provide for our family.  We thought things were getting better, still praying that things will very soon.

As his wife I want to fix it.  I keep asking the Lord to teach us quickly what we need to learn so that all this stress can slow down a bit.  It would be so nice just to not have to worry about anything for awhile.  I love my husband.  He is an amazing man. He works so hard and takes care of us so well.  I don’t want him to ever doubt that.  I don’t want him to ever feel like it is his fault.  As far as I am concerned I am married to the most amazing, hard working man in the world!  I am so so proud of him.  We are praying that we would be able to see a season very different than the one that we have experienced here.  We would appriciate your prayers.


One response to “It never ends…

  1. Becky,
    I know EXACTLY how you feel. For the past 2 years we have been in the same spot. 1 income, more mouths to feed and (interest stacking) bills to pay. We had a few months of less stress from about Dec-Feb. and then my husband also had to switch jobs or loose his job, and with the switch had to take a 10% pay cut (which is HUGE for our 1 income!) RIght when we were ahead we got pushed down again. However, it is very temporary, and we know we will be out of this season in as little as one more year. It is incredibly draining, and I’ve had more tears in the past two years than in all my 24 years combined. Hold in there, kiss your hubby and your babe everyday…and know that it is TEMPORARY and God is BIG and cares about your small details. We are in the same spot.
    Sarah M

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